Yesterday I had an interview with a very nice lady who wants to hire me to tutor her kid in reading and math. I’ve been a tutor for many years, and I love doing it, so most of the interview was actually fun, talking about how I work with kids who struggle academically, stuff like that.
Then she asked me about my educational background. I told her that I recently graduated from seminary.
“Oh!” she said, “That’s wonderful!”
Then she said, “So. . .you’re tutoring now?”
Yes, nice lady. I’m tutoring now. I’m going to teach your daughter how to read and do multiplication. I will be doing that instead of preparing a sermon on Amos, or leading a Bible study, or using my mad Greek or Hebrew skills to explore some burning theological question.
Nice lady, I don’t know how I ended up in this situation, so I can’t explain it too well to you. I could tell you that the church that has my heart doesn’t seem too interested (and never has) in using my abilities. But we just met, nice lady. It doesn’t seem appropriate to tell you that I have wept and prayed over this situation to the point where I’ve just set it down at Jesus’ feet now. (OK, I just realized that I can tell that to the whole innernets, but not this nice lady, but whatever. Moving along.)
So this is what I said to the nice lady. “I really like tutoring. As for the seminary stuff, I guess it will work itself out.”
Honestly, my innernets friends, I felt like a doofus saying something like that. I still feel embarassed when I have to tell someone that this is my situation. Even someone I don’t know! I trust God to use me where I am and in what I do, but it still breaks my heart to not be serving in a church-esque scenario anymore.
Today I’m asking God to help me see creative and non-traditional ways of serving the body of Christ and His world. I am refusing today sit in a state of calling myself doofus for going to seminary. This is my fabulous vocational life! Multiplication tables and. . . something To Be Determined.